Thursday, July 22, 2010

Mommy's turn!

Last night Jared came home from work exhausted. His usual routine is he heads to work in the morning and once he gets home we quickly grab dinner, play with the boys, put them to bed and he heads up to the hospital and stays for a few hours. It makes for a REALLY long day. I am always a little bummed at night when he heads to the hospital because I am really missing Addison by then and I miss just hanging out at home with my husband BUT last night I got to go up there again and I was SO excited.

The below picture is of her weigh-in. Every night they take her out of her isolette and weigh her and then they change her bedding. Last night she was wide awake and alert so I snagged some great pictures. Unfortunately after this the nurse noticed that Addie has kicked her way out of her IV and needed a new one. I am not squeamish about needles or my kids being stuck with them. I am a NICU mom and shots/needles are nothing compared to vents and desats. I stood there patiently waiting for my turn to hold my girl. I was calm during the first 2 or 3 IV attempts but on about the 4gth attempt, when they tried the vein in her head and that didn't' work either I was done. I told them I needed a break and went and had a breakDOWN. I prayed and prayed that they would get the IV in and when I returned they had been successful. My baby however was exhausted. It was pitiful. She sobbed during the first few attempts and then just laid there. I think that is what got to me the most. She had no energy left to even cry.

The nurse suggested that she stay in her isolette for her feeding since she was so exhausted so I "held" her again with my arms through the holes in her isolette cradling her head in one hand and her feet in the other. As horrible of a night as it was I was still thankful that I was there for her as much as I could be. I am looking forward to seeing her again today and praying that I get to hold her for a while.

weigh in

Here she is being weighed. She weighed in at 940 grams which is almost back to her birth weight!

addison lily

She was SO awake and alert.


KJ said...

Love the pictures! Just remember, each day (and IV) brings you a day closer to having her come home!

Andrea said...

Poor baby and Momma. The pictures are great!

Molly Smith said...

I can't believe how much Alex & Eli look like the same person in those photos. They really are twins!...duh! She is so beautiful and I keep forgetting to tell you how much I love her little bow.

Shelly said...

What a precious lil girl!! I love the bow in her hair:) She is a fighter!! Praying for strength for her everyday. Hang in there, alot of people are lifting you up in prayer.

briana said...

ok, i'm calling it: she looks like alex! which means she looks like you or one your sisters! she is so beautiful! i'm so glad she was so wide awake for you. soon, soon, she will be home with her brothers, mommy and daddy. I can't wait to celebrate that day!! until then, we celebrate every little step towards total health for her! i love you guys and am still praying!

Crazy About My Boys said...

Great pictures!! Love the bow...the first of many to come!!! :)

Liz said...

She is so adorable and I think she looks like she will have Eli's hair coloring.