Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Here We Go Again!

We had an interesting day today. I'll start with the good news: Addison passed her BPP meaning she did her breathing, movement and had adequate fluid. I got my weekly tests back regarding the mild pre-eclampsia and my levels have actually improved. I am no closer to pre-eclampsia, yay. The not so great news is that in the past 2 weeks Addison has not grown much at all. She is in the 15th percentile (50 being average in case you are not familiar). When babies are in the 10th percentile they deliver you. As you can see we are very close. They only do measurements every 2 weeks and the head doctor does not think I will be pregnant long enough to measure in 2 weeks.

He actually consulted with his team of doctors and the NICU neonatologists (same ones who treated the boys) today and they are going to continue to take things a day at a time. Her lack of growth indicates that my placenta is not nourishing her properly. The dopplers also kind of leveled off also which I can't thoroughly explain but they would like there to be more of a variable from what I understand. He thinks I will deliver within days maybe a week but again, no one really knows. I am a bit discouraged that I made it these two weeks and she hasn't shown growth but I know that it gave her lungs more time to mature and I am sure it had other positive affects otherwise they wouldn't want me to see how many additional days I can stay pregnant.

I am pretty drained from the wait today. It was about 3 hours after they told me that I may be delivering that they actually decided that today was not the day. Thankfully, my friend Stacey visited today and we passed the time together talking. Poor Stacey got here when they were taking me down for my ultrasound and I convinced her to come and keep me company. I assured her that the tests were boring and uneventful. Boy, was I wrong today. So we are left to trust in God for the answers. I don't mean to sound like that is a last resort. It is truly what we do every day whether we realize it or not. He is the one with the answers and the one who supplies our strength when we feel completely drained, which is where Jared and I are at. He promises in Isaiah to "renew our strength" and one thing I know beyond a shadow of a doubt is that he keeps his promises.

Please continue to keep us in your prayers. The boys are starting to ask Jared not to leave them in the morning and anytime he is getting ready to leave even when he is taking them with him Alex is saying "Don't leave me". Eli has been telling us he is sad at random times throughout the day and when he visits. Last night when he was leaving the hospital I was standing at the nurses station and waving goodbye to them and he yelled back to me "I miss you so much". Ugh, it broke my heart and left me teary-eyed in front of the nurses. Little booger, any other time I couldn't have paid him to say that! :) Like I said we all need our strength renewed and we cling to God's promise.

10 comments:

Michelle Pfeifer said...

Becky! Oh my heavens, I havent been keeping up with your blog lately but ok so I am definately praying for your next week of pregnancy. I love to see that you know where your strength comes from and I am sorry that you are drained. I can only imagine and relate just a tiny bit from my two days in the hospital without my 2 day old baby. I was a wreck. STINKIN PRE-ECLAMPSIA!!
I am home with Charlie during the day right now - so let me know if there is anything you need and I can bring it to you, or just visit.

Tina said...

I'm not sure how far along you are (i know it's more the 27 weeks) but I hope everything works out. I'm glad you aren't near pre-e anymore. Good luck!

KJ said...

Praying for you all...I can't imagine saying goodbye at the end of a visit to the boys...may the Lord renew your strength moment by moment!

Becky @ Our Sweet Peas said...

Thanks for the prayers!

Michelle send me your e-mail address so I can catch up!

And to answer Tina's question I am 29 wks and 4 days tomorrow.

Becky @ Our Sweet Peas said...
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LauraC said...

I'm still thinking about you!!

Michelle said...

michellepfeifer2005@yahoo.com :-)

Crazy About My Boys said...

It was a crazy day yesterday, but I was glad to be there with you! Eventhough the ultrasound didn't turn out as well as we hoped, we are still praying for Addison. We know that God is in control of the whole situation! We are continuing to keep ALL of you in our prayers!! If you need anything (even a cookie or non diet pop! HA!) let me know!!! Also, it was awesome to "meet" your precious, little girl yesterday!! I probably looked at her round stomach more times than I have my own boys!!! Love ya!!!

Liz said...

I didn't read this before writing my email last night. Glad the pre-e is better. The not knowing what is going to happen is killer. I teared up just reading about Eli telling you he missed you so much. Prayers to you...

doloresdenton said...

Hi Becky,
Taking care of the boys is fun. Alex crawled in my lap for snuggle time and I asked if he missed his snuggle time with mommy. His reply was yeah. Eli was also in a hugging mood and also misses you. He gets mad at me sometimes when I tell him no T.V. I am trying to stick by what you want their days to be like. They are such loving boys and they crack me up!
We are all praying that everything will go well for you and Addison. Your faith is so strong, I know the Lord will see you thru this time. It may be hard right now, but the blessing will be great!
I will see you soon.
Dolores