So far I have been able to take things a day at a time. I pray that God will give me the strength to continue that. I am not getting caught up in the "what if's". I will not lie, my emotions get the best of me from time to time. I want to tuck the boys in at night. I want to swing them on the swings and take them on walks. I want to take some of the burden of all this off of Jared. I wanted a normal delivery of a full term baby but that is not what I am having and that is o.k. I have to look back at all that we have been brought through and know that we will make it through this also.
We have an amazing support system. I have friends and family watching the boys all day, cooking us meals, grocery shopping and taking me to doctor's appointments, among other things. We are definitely being taken care of. Please keep us in your prayers. Despite the odds I am specifically praying for 34 weeks which is 10 1/2 more. It is a long shot but I like to aim high. If you'd like to join me in praying for that many weeks I'd love to hear about it. Leave a comment. It will encourage me a bit. Thanks!